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Hard to get back on track... I wrote last week about how bad i was on my trip to DC and how i had gained weight. i was determined to get back on track, but it was harder than i thought it would be! i've been slowly working myself back into healthy eating habits, but i know that being somewhere in between healthy and unhealthy just won't work. so, starting today, i will be completely back on plan. no excuses. nothing tastes better than skinny feels, right? So Mad! and embarrassed It's Autumn again. I know I've written already today, but I have to get this out. I am so furious with my husband right now! Why doesn't he get it? This is exactly why I didn't even want him to know that I was dieting. Every time I let him in on it, he hurts me. Tonight, after church, we went to Applebee's with some friends. Everything was fine and we were all hanging out and having fun. I just got a little appetizer and a diet coke and then I said that, since I wasn't back on my diet until tomorrow, I wanted to have dessert. At that point, in front of everyone and really loudly, my husband proceeds to berate me and tell me that I shouldn't be eating dessert and if I want to lose weight I need to listen to him and why would I ever be so stupid to even think I should have dessert. How embarrassing! Our other friends were just looking at me like I was disgusting. And he just wouldn't let it go. I asked him quietly several times not to tell me what I can and can't eat and not to talk to me that way. But, what makes it worse is, this is the 16th time he's done this to me in public. It makes me feel so small. Every time we go out with friends and he does this to me, when we get home, I tell him that I didn't appreciate it and that it makes me feel bad about myself. But, he still does it. It's a horrible situation to be in, because he basically called me a fat slob in front of our friends. And loudly. It was ackward for them, they didn't know what to say. This is why I never want him to know I'm dieting or exercising. Why does it make him feel like he has the right to control how I diet or tell me to exercise? It's not exactly like I've been going around telling all of my friends, "hey, look at me. I'm on a diet because I'm morbidly obese." I told him that I wasn't telling my friends about my weight loss goal, but he just yells it out at me in a resteraunt. It makes me feel like if don't get the dessert, he wins and will think that he should always do that, but then if I do get the dessert after he draws everyone's attention to my obesity, they will all be looking at me thinking, "he was right, she's disgusting and shouldn't be eating that." I'm so hurt by his behavior tonight. 2008/1/25 Weight Gain
Well Hello there world!! Autumn, here.
I just got back from DC. I went there with every intention of being good and eating right while I was there. And, I failed. I ate so bad while I was there. Soda, fries, cheeseburgers, Chinese food, Auntie Anne’s Pretzels, Chic Fil A, you name it. I did exercise a lot while I was there though. We walked probably about 10 miles each day. Also, I worked out in the hotel gym 2 nights. None the less, I gained weight while I was there. I was determined when I left to at least maintain weight. However, based on how I ate while I was there, I deserve to gain the weight. So, I’m home now. And I’m exhausted! And I’m going to get back on track. I need to go grocery shopping today for more healthy food. I weighed in today because I was in DC on Monday (our usual weigh in day) and there was no scale there. I will weigh in again on Monday, even though it’s only 2 days from now, and then I’ll be back on schedule. I’m so mad at myself for eating like that while I was gone. I should have been stronger, this is so important to me. Now I know what it must feel like for the contestants who leave the Biggest Loser campus and have to go home and try to do it on their own. It’s hard to stay on track when you’re not in your usual routine. One good thing though: while I was eating all the crap I ate, I was thinking to myself “this is so disgusting. I feel gross for eating this.” And I was craving vegetables! That’s mental progress for me, because the stuff I was eating while I was there is the kind of stuff I used to always eat and never thought there was anything wrong with it.
I hope you all had a better weight loss week than I did! 2008/1/20 School and DietingHi. This is Ally. 2008/1/15 Life has taken over my life! Ah! Oh my gosh! I can't even describe how exhausted I am and it's only Tuesday! Law school went back in session yesterday, so classes have begun. My schedule is ridiculous! I don't know what I was thinking! I got out of my car and forgot to put it in park 3 times today, that's how tired I am. And it's not from lack of sleep or anything, it's just from life. Other people who have like 1/2 as busy of a schedule as I do always talk to me about how busy and stressed and tired they are and I have to try not to laugh. I mean, I want to be a good friend so I listen to them, but look who you're talking to. Are you serious!?!? I've literally scheduled my time EVERY SINGLE DAY from 6:00 AM through 12:00 AM straight through with no breaks. Sometimes I really wish that I were on the Biggest Loser campus. Then, I could just focus on my weight loss goals, work out 4 hours a day, have only healthy options to eat (unless it's a challenge dealing with food), and have tremendous support all around me. Instead, I have to focus on law school, 2 jobs, and volunteering 50 hours a week, and then make extra hours in the day to cook healthy food and go to the gym. But I know how important this is. And for some reason, I feel like this is my last chance to lose the weight. I have to do it now. I feel desperate. So, if extra hours in the day is what it takes, extra hours I must make. But boy am I exhausted! Autumn 2008/1/13 Ugh! Boo! It's the "special" time of month here and it makes me feel like crap. Plus, it gives me all kinds of cravings and makes me feel lazy and not like working out at all. This definitely puts a cramp in my walk! Oh well, gotta push past this... Autumn 2008/1/12 Yoga & Food FailureBuenos Noches. Autumn speaking. So, I just ate a BBQ Cheddar Steak sub. It was 586 calories. I told myself that I was allowed to "cheat" for one meal per week. And, I didn't drink soda, eat fries, get dessert, or get an Auntie Anne's Pretzel while I was there (like I always used to), so I guess I'm getting better. I know that I allowed myself this one cheat meal, but I still felt guilty and fat while eating it. So, my goal for next week: either make my cheat meal something a little healthier or don't have a cheat meal. Okay, now that I've gotten that off of my chest: Ally and I went to a Yoga class this morning! It was fun! I have never done anything like Yoga before, and it was a little intimidating because everyone else in our class was ultra thin, toned, and muscular. And they all said Namaste. But, we survived it and I actually enjoyed it! I think it's something that I could be good at once I get this big belly out of the way! (it's hard to lower your chest to your knees when you have a belly the size of someone who is 7 months pregnant getting in the way). I'm glad we went. It was something different. And, when I came home and entered it into the computer, I found out that we burned 248 calories by doing it. I certainly sweat more during Yoga then I do during my typical cardio workout. After Yoga, I did 40 minutes of cardio and then 75 crunches. I skipped the weight machines for today, I think I'll try to alternate days on them. I wish Jillian or Bob was here to tell me what I should be doing when I work out! 2008/1/11 Working out Hi. This is Ally! I think that Autumn is nuts. She's all excited about the working out and I can barely move after our two work outs this week...and I'm starving! But I'm going to keep plugging through (and filling my belly up with water). Soon I will be saying that South Beach makes me eat too much and one hour at the gym a day is not nearly enough.  I've been using www.fitday.com to help me monitor my exercising and eating. It really helps to see how each thing I eat breaks down into calories, fat, and carbs. South Beach basically tells me what to eat and when, but Fitday is helping me to see exactly why each thing is good for me or not. Also, it shows how many calories you burn in just doing every day things. Like, I'm in a bowling league so bowling for about 45 minutes on Thursday helped me to burn 114 calories! And that's doing something fun. I made it through my first restaurant meal last night. It's very exciting for me because that's usually the time I fail diets. Plus, I even managed to pass up free drinks because of ladies night.  I guess this means I'm on the road to a new and improved me.Happy Friday America! Autumn here. We worked out again today. Hopefully we'll start working out every day, so I won't feel the need to report on this. Today, we went to Gold's again. I went on the elliptical for 15 minutes, the bike for 5, and then the treadmill for 19 minutes. Then, we went to the weight room and did all the machines that were for your arms and legs. I did 2 leg machines- 10 reps of 25 on each. Then, I did about 6 arm machines- 5 reps of 15 each. I hope I'll feel this tomorrow! I'm a bit of a sadist (i don't know if that's the right word for it) when it comes to exercise. If my muscles don't hurt the next day, I feel like I didn't do enough. Today, my muscles didn't hurt from yesterday's workout, so I wanted to step it up a notch today. Tomorrow, we're going to do 45 minutes of Cardio, then take a 1 hour Pilates class, followed by a 1 hour Yoga class. Those should be interesting. I've never attempted either Pilates or Yoga. Also, I joined an MBA program today. Just what I need- one more thing in my schedule. Why do I keep adding things to my life? What's wrong with me! Haha I love the torture, I guess. First Workout/ Eating Out! Howdy America--- Autumn here. I have 2 exciting things to report on today. First, let's talk about last night. We went to Sonny's BBQ for dinner and I succeeded in not breaking my diet! I ate 1 charbroiled chicken breast, green beans, and drank 72 ounces of water! I was SO tempted to get my usual pulled pork sandwich, but I resisted. My whole meal was just under 25 calories. Woo hoo! That is one small step in the right direction for Autumn! Okay, now for what we did today. Brace yourselves America- we worked out! I know, i know, it's surprising but true! We wanted to do the 1000 step weekly challenge and our school's gym doesn't have any stair steppers. We live in Florida, so there aren't really stairs around here either. So, we got a free 1 week trial at Gold's Gym. We did the 1000 steps on the stairstepper there. I climbed 35 floors in 11 minutes and 20 seconds! Wow! And boy is a stairstepper hard! I've never been on one before. After that, to cool down, we rode 1 mile on the stationary bike. When we were done with that, we jogged on the treadmill for 20 minutes and finished it off with 5 minutes on the elliptical. I know it's not much, but it's a start! We went to the mall to run some errands today and I was strong enough to walk past both of my biggest weaknesses too! I didn't stop for a Philly Cheese Steak OR an Auntie Anne's Pretzel with a Cherry Coke. Go us! And so it begins...Hi. This is Ally for my first blog entry! We officially started our weight loss goals on the 7th, and I’ve yet to start my diet. It’s really because I haven’t been to the grocery store yet to get my supplies, but I have been consciously eating better in the meantime. I plan on doing the South Beach diet. Autumn and I were on it last year and really saw some results, but as our lives got more and more hectic, we stopped it. My sister is currently on the diet. She’s been on it a year and has lost 50 pounds! She’s a really big inspiration to me. She’s been overweight since she had her daughter 10 years ago, and now she’s finally making the move to a healthy lifestyle. I just saw her at Christmas and she looked amazing! She was in great health and finally really happy with herself. I know that if she can do it, I can too. Though I haven’t started my diet, I did do my first work-out today, Dance Dance Revolution for the Playstation. I love it. I sweat my bum off (hopefully) and have fun doing it. Autumn and I are going to start a real work-out routine, but this is something fun for us to do once in a while for a change of pace. Dieting while traveling/ scale addiction Hey there, Autumn again. I have a confession to make. I am addicted to the scale. I can't stop weighing myself every day! It's the first thing I do when I wake up. I know you should only weigh yourself once a week, so I'm not recording my weight loss each day, I only enter it in once a week. It's like my daily weigh ins are secret. Usually when I diet or try to lose weight, I'm incredibly disappointed when I weigh myself every morning because the weight fluctuates a little. However, something surprising has happened the last two days. I weighed in for my starting weight on Monday morning and I weighed 199. Then, I weighed myself Tuesday (yesterday) morning and there was a pretty decent weight loss in 1 day! So, I thought, for sure, it was something to do with water or something, i don't know, but I thought when I weighed myself this morning, it would go back up to 197 or something. Well, when I weighed myself this morning (Wednesday), not only had the weight from yesterday stayed off, but it was down another pound! I know it's back to weigh in every day. I need to stop because if the weight goes back up to like 197 by next Monday's weigh in, I'll be very disappointed, whereas if I had not weighed myself every day, I would be excited about 197. So, that's a new goal for next week- to put the scale away in between weekly weigh ins. Now, on to what this blog is really supposed to be about- dieting while traveling. In situations like this, I wish I was on the biggest loser campus where going out to eat fast food, etc. is not even an option. See, I'm going to Washington DC from January 19-24th. I'm pretty much going to have to eat out every meal. I'm not staying with family or friends or in a situation where I have a kitchen. I'm going up there as the chaperone for the church's youth group. We're going to March for Life. We're staying in a hotel in the city and the kids will need to eat out. Since I'm the chaperone, I have to go with them to eat, etc. We'll have a continental breakfast in the mornings, so I can find Nutrisystem friendly foods there. It's lunch & dinner that I'm worried about. I don't know what to eat when I'm not going to be in charge of picking the place that we eat, etc. I know that I should drink a lot of water and focus on correct portion sizes, but I don't know what to order at a fast food place. I'm nervous about it. One good thing about the trip is that we'll be doing a LOT of walking, so I won't have to worry about exercise! 2008/1/8 Week 1- so far (okay, so it's only been 1 day) Hello there.. this is Autumn speaking. I just wanted to write a little bit about how things have been so far. We officially started and weighed in yesterday morning. And I wanted to get to the gym or do at least some exercise today, but I didn't make it. I didn't do much of anything productive today except play with this site. It's kind of a catch-22, right? Spending most of the day on the computer messing with a website for a weight loss challenge? Haha. I know I shouldn't have been in front of this screen all day, and I'm going to do better at that tomorrow. As for my diet- I am using the Nutrisystem Diet. I like it a lot because all of the food is pre-measured and that makes it easier for me to follow. I don't spend a lot of time cooking. My schedule is pretty hectic in general- I'm a full time law student, have 2 jobs, am currently directing a musical, am a youth minister at church, and sing in the church choir twice a week. My biggest challenge is finding time to be healthy- time to work out and time to make food instead of driving through McDonald's. Anyway, Nutrisystem seems pretty simple and pretty easy to me. I just eat exactly what they tell me to. I started the diet on Sunday and haven't cheated or been tempted to cheat yet. I need to focus more on drinking all my water and working out! One thing that has really surprised me though (knock on wood) is that i haven't craved soda! I am addicted to soda, and i'm pretty sure I owe at least 30 of these lbs to cherry coke and dr. pepper. Usually, when I try to stop drinking it, I get headaches, dizzy, am really tired, and just feel crappy. But I haven't had any soda since Saturday night (January 5th) and so far, so good. So that is something to be very grateful for I tend to be very long winded, so I'll cut this off here. I'm sure I'll write more after I watch Biggest Loser tonight. Oh yeah-Biggest Loser is on tonight! Woo hoo! Maybe I'll talk my husband into bringing the elliptical into the living room and I can work out while I watch it. That would be good! |
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